I Don't Want to Forget This Day

Today, I don't know how to describe it. I'm gonna tell my story about him again. I know this sounds naive, but I just want to share my feelings. Today, I cried this noon. I cried for un-important thing, but it hurts my heart so bad. There's someone who mock me which its very mean, that person mock me about my physical appearence, and I'm very sensitive when it concerns about my physical appearence. Because of that stupid simple thing I cried.
At that time no one knows if I cried, except him. When I cried he was seat in front of me, he looked out for tissue to another friends and he gave me that tissue to wipe my tears, after that he accompany me, he ask who makes me cried but I won't answered him but he kept guessing until he knew that bastard names, after that he calmed me down, he told me everything gonna be okay and he cheered me up until I got my smile back.
It's such a releaved that I can share my story to him. By the way, it's not the first time I cried in front of him, actually this is the second times. I know this is such a shame, but what can I do? When I'm sad, my tears suddenly fallin' down and I can't hold it. He's the one who always understand and he always tell me everything gonna be okay.
Lately, I feel like I'm alone and nobody cares, I don't know why but I often feel like that. I'm busy and my super close girlfriends is busy too and we are not in the same class, so now I don't meet them often and now I like to feel that I'm lonely. And lately I like to stay away from people, because I don't wanna be hurt. But when I'm alone or quiet he always come to me and talk about something to me which I think it's unimportant, but it makes me laughed and lighted up my day. I feel he pays attention to me. Because of him, I feel I always have someone to talk to. Thanks God for giving him around me. Even thou we are just a bestfriend, but I think it's enough.
Today, I want to write this feeling in my blog because I'm afraid I forgot about him someday and I'm afraid I forgot what he has done to me, so I just want to say that he is the best male friend that I've ever had and he is such a gentlemant. I'm lucky to have a bestfriend like you. I hope we will be friends forever and you will not forget about me as same as I will not forget you.

"HIM"

Why I fallin' in love with you, my bestfriend? I know you already have a girlfriend and you love her so much. But I can't avoid this feelings. I am no better than her, trust me I know that. It makes me sad that the reality is I'm not good enough for you. I'm far from perfect. I'm ugly, I'm fat, I'm stupid, I'm hopeless and not confident. But the question is "Why we have to be so close like these?" I still wondering.You are the reason I want to go to school everyday, I brush my hair every morning, I looking at the mirror every morning, I want to look pretty, I go to saloon and I'm dieting. Because I want to looks good in your eyes. But nothing I can do, you already have a girlfriend and she is perfect in your eyes. If you happy so am I. You are my bestfriend, I'm hoping the best for you. I hope God giving me someone who's more better than you. Not long after our 11th grade we will separate, I'm gonna miss you. Goodbye and goodluck mate! Godbless you always.