Words Full of Bullshit

Why most of the ppl like to play around with words? At first they say yes even would promise and eventually they ditch their words. I seriously hate ppl like that. I would fight to keep my words, sacrifice money, time, and energy. And with easily they do the reverse actions with mine. Well, its fuckin unfair. Why should i be the one who satisfy ppl wants rather than mine? And ive came to realize 'okay, this is not right.' I just think im enough with this. And i would not do this anymore. I wouldnt even care. Like i fight for shadow, wasting time that could be money, and burning my money into the air right? Moreover this making me realize who are the real ones that fight for me and not. So, read it carefully bullshit-ers, if u do realize u did this to me or even anyone else with, u better make up those faults, because karma does exist, when u  get into this situation, when u sacrifice everything and get nothing, it would be worse than pain in the ass. 

Your Love & Support, Chefs!

Hi guys, today i want to share story about my journey in Le Cordon Bleu of Culinary Art Institute, Sydney. Im going to finish my course in college within a week and hitting the IP industry for 6 months which included part of the course too. Of course my journey become a student hasn't ended yet! Im still 19th indeed :3 well, never mind. My point of this post is I'm pretty much sad have to leave this beautiful college for 6 months. It feels so fast, you know. It seems yesterday i just started and now its about to finish. It seems yesterday I'm so lame and now I'm much knowledgeable and could be independent in the kitchen, even help my friends if they in need or doing smthg wrong. Nine months is too fast. I changed into a different person that i couldn't imagine before. I become a strong girl that could stand up for myself, trying to treat&cook every ingredients right, and fix my mistake if there's smthg wrong. Well, not that strong haha, but much stronger than before. However, I couldn't do this and made thru without the help, love, and support from my teachers. They are amazing Chefs! I love them so much. They are the persons who makes me keep trying trying and trying. Feel like from my education history, i never met teachers that support me so much like this. I could say they are very dedicated with their job. I would never forget about memories in the college's kitchen with them. Some of them very funny, some of them very strict, but all i know whatever they do in the kitchen, they never forget to bring their supports to motivate the students. Not only that, they are  not only talking, but they do actions. They would love to show students, over and over, again and again how to do this, how to do that without even bored or annoyed. Its amazing that i mostly see is the perfection with what they do to the food, even they not doing or watching the demo. Because of them, i wasn't kezia that only love food, but now I'm kezia that really really madly in love with food, that knows how to treat it well (not perfect, but always trying :p). I always remember from basic i was struggling to cook everything and put it on the plate for my presentation, but whenever it ends up pretty good and they give their compliment on my food, happy surrounded on my face. If i could mention how many dishes, range of difficulties, and how much things to do on workflow within one lesson which only made on 3-4 hours with quick preparation and cleaning, maybe it seems impossible or possible but feel busy like hell, but they make us can through this. So cool isn't? There are so much stories that i would love to share between me and this college plus the awesome teachers. Mostly i found it funny which is the jokes in the kitchen and the clumsiness of me, my friends, or Chefs that likely to happen by unconsciousness or accidentally. And even not little stories too about the drama in the kitchen that could make people going wild, mad, stress, fight, etc. Probably i will write a book someday muahaha! Well, now i don't have much time to write more again, i need to go to work! By this post, i just wanna say a very big thank you to the teacher Chefs in Le Cordon Bleu Sydney, i love them so much!!! Thank you for the lessons, helps, love, supports, memories, and good moments (i will forget about the bad ones haha)! I will never forget all of them, especially my favourite Chefs that i haven't mention on this post (but maybe on the next post). I hope you all well! And of course i would back next year to continue my diploma in there ;) i hope you guys will still be there and see you! Xx.

Life oh life...

Do you know how i miss being a girl i used to be? Had long hair, went to saloon a lot, dressed well, being pretty, went to gym a lot, had good body, got called pretty, rode car everyday, met persons that mostly will make me happy, has great bestfriends+friends, got maid+driver. Trully i miss all of that. Now i live in different country and being a chef. I dont say i dont like being chef. Of course i like it. But the life its very different with i had before. I hv to face and brave do the things im afraid before. Do the things i wouldnt do before. Couldnt even think about look anymore when hitting the kitchen. Even cuts and burns everywhere on my hands. Its a very though life here. I wont cry or regret life that ive chosed. But i just miss being a girl that care of herself & being loved by ppl. Not long time again i would go back to my hometown for vacation and visit my mom. I couldnt tell how much im looking forward for those days. Cant wait to have a big smile on my face again. Everything that i missed will back to me, even tho only in two weeks. Im going to keep my happiness from my hometown to this country for the six months ahead. No matter what happen. I want the cheer-up kezia back into the kitchen, not annoying kezia that lately likely to mad and pissed of easily if smthg wrong in the kitchen. Hopefully :-)