26th Nov was Perfect

The night before 26th nov, me and jasmine had looong conversation until 3 o'clock in the morning. Its been a long time we're not sharing. Im glad to hear her good story, shes in love hahaha. LOVE HER! We laughed a lot, shared a lot, and she boosted my mood up \☺/

Here's our photo together :

Me and Jasmine

At that night, I told her 'I will try to meet her tomorrow', the exactly date is Sat 26th Nov 2011. Finally, I can meet her and fristine also wohooo its been a long time we are not meeting together. Actually at that date, I don't plan to spend the day with them, but end up with I did hahaha. We met at mcd kemang, moved to lacodefine hope that we got something to eat there, but in the end we didn't eat anything. After that, fristine decided to take us to her home and she promised she will bring us to pim. At fristine's car we talked a lot and laughed a lot. She said I'm not funny anymore, but in her car and her house, I can make her and jasmine laughed. See fris? I'm not that garing, I just need time to make u funny jokes after we haven't seing each other for a long time :p and btw, I had funnn. Miss them so muchhh.

Here's our photo at fristine's car :

Fristine&Jasmine. Love them sooo much :') :* <3 

Fristine&Jasmine with Me

When we were still on the way to pim, vita told me that now she is at pim with diandra and gitta. OMG, I'm so happy, I'm gonna meet my girls. Too bad, jasmine can't join us, because she had to buy a new phone. The next thing me and fristine got to do is to meet vita, diandra, and gitta. When I saw vita, I ran to her to give her a hug. I miss vita so much. After that me and my girls had late lunch and took view pictures together. Vita told me tasya and brendy also gonna come, but I can't meet them because I said to my mom and dad that day I won't come home late. And also udu can't come too. So I can't meet tasya, udu and brendy. It's sad riteee? I wish I can meet all of them. Despite of everything I AM HAPPY, because I've met fristine, jasmine, vita, gita, and diandra.

This is my photo with my gals at pim :

Me with Vita <3

Me, Vita, Fristine, and Gitta

Diandra, Me, Vita, Fristine, and Gitta

LOVE U GIRLS, U'VE MADE MY DAY.

xoxo, Kezia

Oh ya, and I'm not forget to congrats WallStreet pim. At that date WallStreet pim celebrated 3rd years anniversary too. Happy bday WallStreet pim. It's the best place to study english and socialize, well for me. I <3 WallStreet!

The Changes of My Life

It's been 14 weeks or over 3 months I've been study in foundation studies. Time past by so fast, I even dont realize my semester exams almost close. Today, I realized that I feel empty. I feel the world like falling apart into me. I used to feel confident and think like I know lot of things more than everyone, but the reality tells me not. I'm just a piece of crap. A little lack can dispel my confident.

As time goes by, I feel everything changes. At the climax of my confuses, I start to thinking what I've done and try to find out what I'm missing in my life. In this point, I realize I cant tell my story to anyone or my bestfriends directly like I used to. At that moment, I randomly want to cry. I try to strunggling by myself, pretending nothing happened, but I still cant resist my tears, it starts fallin down from my eyes. It wont stop till I'm tired of thinking and fall asleep. I miss my bestfriends so much, I need them, I really do. Moreover rite now, I want their hugs and their jokes, which all they did to cheer me up always works out when I'm crying. I remember back then, we always laugh hard because all those stupid jokes they've made to make me forget my sadness. At that time, all my burden seems become more lightly. Life seems worthwhile. But now everything changes, I'm not around them anymore.

Beside of that, I'm having new friends too. I'm happy but it's not that easy to tell them everything, even if I close to them. I have to preserve my attitude. Also, I have to stick around with one or two people that I don't like. It's become more harder and more harder for me. I tend to be quiet or mad when those two people around. I cant control myself and oftenly I become mean. I hate to do that. But, when it comes to do something that I'm not into it, I always keep a distance from it. I feel now I'm changes not like I used to, I become not very open to my new friends and now I'm very sensitive. Little thing that changes or hurt me, makes me wondering "Is that my fault? What did I do?". Otherwise, lot of things makes me dissapointed too. My school, my teacher, my score, my social life, and even my family. Everything seems unfair right now. I'm not perfect, but everyone always demanding the best part of me. It makes me cannot breath easily.

I often feel seems lot of friends surround me but I still feel empty. I just need someone to lean on, someone to talk to. Someone who understand me very well and that person can remind me if I did mistakes. That person will not leave me, no matter what happen. That person will always stay by my side. Not just in happy times, but in sad times too. "Me and you against the world together". I love that words, not trying to be naive, but that's life I imagine. Well, I hope everything turn out soon into something good and I hope that "someone" can come to changes my life.