After a Hurricane Comes a Rainbow

I had a terrible nightmare which it becomes a reality two weeks ago. I'm not gonna tell u what the story is because it's very embarassing for me and until now i still can't believe i can experience bad thing like that. It was the worst thing that happened in my life. At that time, my heart full of sorrow and pain. Because of that nightmare my hardwork not paid off, my self esteem fell, i feel so embarassed, i didn't know what to do, and my head full of negative thoughts that i can't control. I started to blame myself, everybody who didn't want to help me, my enemy, and i started to afraid meeting everybody eventhou it's my bestfriends or my friends. I started to freaked out if all of my friends knew this story they will underestimate me and they will see me as a junk. So I decided at that time to turned off my phone. I did that for my own good, i didn't want to be in under pressure, i want to the situation calm down first until i can show up in front of public & my friends again and with put some smile in my face, and tell them "it's okay it's my lesson learned, i'm fine guys so don't worry". So, finally i made it to turned my phone off for a week. Yup it's killing me, but there's no other way i guess. I didn't want to hear a negative thing that can bring me down when i'm not ready, but when i'm ready i will take all the consequence that i have to accept. For a week all i'm doing is just stay at home praying, reading bible, searching entertainment from tv, internet, and calling fristine ameylia which is my closest bestfriend. After the situation is getting better, i start turned on my phone, and meet up with my few bestfriends. And after the situation is already better i start to go online, tweeting in twitter, show up in public, and meet my lots of friends. It was a hard time for me but now it already past. I'm glad that i can trough that hard time. I thankGod for everything He has given to me, He also give me strengh to face my problem, and He also give me a way out from my problem. I also Thank my family for being there for me, they're always helping me to find a way out, especially my mom, she has so meritorious to me. Thankyou so much mom, u are really my helper, i don't know what my life can be if there's no mommy in my life, i'm thankful i have u. And last is my bestfriends and my friends who keep support me behind my back. Thankyou still carring and worrying about me, i love u guys so much. Also i want to thank Fristine for hearing me out, give me a motivation, and praying for me. Thankyou all for everything, without u all i can't trough this nightmare.