New Life

hi blog. i miss u. its been such a long time I'm not writing a post here. maybe its already longer than a month. gotta say, i got a such a busy&hectic day since i got in australia. well, i still got my 'gabut time' but then i often find myself not in the mood to write smthg here. anyway, I'm gonna telling a brief situation of my life in here. many ppl think that studying aboard is cool and those stuffs, well, i was thinking like that, but then, i found its hard, even its so damn hard. but what can i say? i already in here. thats what i chose. can't go back or do anything about it. in my statement, being apart from close friends is the hardest part (family was also for the first time, but I'm over with that). gotta deal with new ppl that is stranger, unpredictable, hv different nation, etc. and sometimes i find its kinda hard to communicate with new ppl in here, even with the native or ppl from other nationalism. i can't stand being lonely and got no one to talk to about life&joke&everything. actually, theres my brother, he's so damn nice and we can talk about everything, but then i miss a presence of close friends. idk why. but then, thats what i feel. the enjoyment&excitement that we can share with a friends is cannot be replaced by family, cause for me, the presence of family&friends&colleagues are different, they hv their own portion in my life to complete me. without any of em, feel like theres smthg missing. and i find that i can't communicate with my friends thats overseas which in indo, we're getting far far and far away. time, assignment, school, etc would be such an obstacle for us to communicate. hard isn't? moreover, the other hard life in here is my school. i chose to study culinary of arts in le cordon bleu. thought it was easy and enjoying, but it doesn't turned that way. it is hard as hell!!! can u imagine, me 18th years old girl competing with 25 years above individuals that got so many experience in kitchen? sometimes i feel like a shit in kitchen. they're fast, automatic, and knowledgeable. they're similar with robot who runs their ingredients in kitchen like tiny biny wity matter, bam, done! food served! while me? lame, slow, unknowledgeable, etc. created nice&tasty dishes thou, but not as qualified as them. sad? down? unpassionate? stress? absolutely my dear. i even think why i would i waste my business school in university into a hell place like this. but what can i say? i still love food. while i know in the industry i gotta struggle with it if i want move forward and hv a great restaurants someday. also, do u know that every break that i hv in my school is only 30 mins? i don't even hv enough time to eat, so sometimes i don't eat at all for all day long. sick isn't? being chef such a torturement. but when food served in the front of tutor chef happiness surrounds me, especially when they give compliment to my food. but, wait guys, my world is not that worse until yesterday. yesterday was totally a bad day. got left by bus, run to my college, got late come to class&kitchen, did smthg wrong in the kitchen, got mad by chef, didn't serve my prawn due to the lack of time, crying in front of chef, left my wallet in the locker (which have subtance of money, bus cards, and apartment key). the worst worst worst day ever in my life. it made me cry all night long and dropped my mood for almost 2 days. well, thats the brief story of my life here. find smthg exciting yet? nahhh! T_T but i hope my life will get better soon as time goes by. keep positive dear me! :)