What I Learned Recently

Never waiting for something and hoping too much. Keep smiling and do something, take the chances. Moving forward. I know its not easy. Found myself crying over and over again when i try so damn hard and it still not meet the expectations. I got angry, stressed and feeling desperate.

But i look around, i have those people who backs me up. They always there when i feel my world almost over, either its friend, kitchen's mates, my bosses, or even my teachers (also my family, which obviously i fight alone in real life without any help from them, but they are people who backs me up with financial and mental support). When i feel i can not go on anymore, there always any of them who joking around and make me laugh, they always helped me get thru into the exit door each day. They give me power to be strong, to get up, to survive, to finish what i started, to laugh, to smile, to joking around and be happy.

I may not the strongest nor the weakest, but I've been working in places with both situation before. Workplace that could empower me or bring up my weakness. And believe me, we all not perfect. We only human, we could be in above or bottom. No day will be repeated the same. So keep trying, don't give up. Those all places have different demands, you just need to learn how to follow their rules. You have God, yourself, people who backs you up. One thing that you should remember, never keep problem by yourself. Talk to people around you, they may not helping, but at least they know your situation. But if they could help, great, then you are saved.

And always always never forget to give a hand to help. What i learned the more you helped people, they helped you back. They are human, not animal. Treat them like you wanna be treated. And in very very intense situation when you working and don't wanna be disturb at all, you may be on 'fuck off' mode to everyone. Im a chef, I'm always in that situation. Especially in hotel, when you not only working with front of house, but with all the departments in hospitality. There was a time when i feel so in pressure and I don't give any shit to any people. But i always meeting those people everywhere, some people keep smiling while i was so pissed, some other so annoying and could make me go mad. But at least try to reply them with smile or you can ignore it if you really really want to, but afterwards you need to apologise to those people. Explained your situation. They will understand.

So this is life. You learned to do things that you don't even like it at all. People around you could come and go anytime. We changed, they changed. Another time you'll meet them it may be not the same again. It is because circumstances and we all should clearly understand that. I believe, everyone's next to us exist for a reason. Don't hold on over the past. It will never be the same again, I learned so many time that past is biggest barrier in life. This not a movie with happy ending. Our life keep going to future until we die. So everyday you wake up, keep your head up to your future and goals. Personally for me, my everyday is a battle. Especially to chefs out there, keep the spirit up and never forget to do the teamwork! Because mostly your team is people who saved your life. Cheers!