Life oh life...

Do you know how i miss being a girl i used to be? Had long hair, went to saloon a lot, dressed well, being pretty, went to gym a lot, had good body, got called pretty, rode car everyday, met persons that mostly will make me happy, has great bestfriends+friends, got maid+driver. Trully i miss all of that. Now i live in different country and being a chef. I dont say i dont like being chef. Of course i like it. But the life its very different with i had before. I hv to face and brave do the things im afraid before. Do the things i wouldnt do before. Couldnt even think about look anymore when hitting the kitchen. Even cuts and burns everywhere on my hands. Its a very though life here. I wont cry or regret life that ive chosed. But i just miss being a girl that care of herself & being loved by ppl. Not long time again i would go back to my hometown for vacation and visit my mom. I couldnt tell how much im looking forward for those days. Cant wait to have a big smile on my face again. Everything that i missed will back to me, even tho only in two weeks. Im going to keep my happiness from my hometown to this country for the six months ahead. No matter what happen. I want the cheer-up kezia back into the kitchen, not annoying kezia that lately likely to mad and pissed of easily if smthg wrong in the kitchen. Hopefully :-)