Monday, August 18, 2014

An Answer to My Emptiness


So this sentences that literally opening my eyes. 

"And I am thankful for every lessons, every heart break.
 For those lessons purpose was not making my life bitter, nor close my heart.They come into life just to reveal another layer of myself and then leave. Their purpose is to shake me up, tear apart my ego a little bit, show me my obstacles and addictions, break my heart open so new light can get in, make me so desperate and out of control that i have to transform my life. And I do.
"

Do you get the message of that? For me those words so powerful. So strong, knocking my heart. 

It is human's message of improvement on their life. Everyone's who is struggling so much to reach their dreams must be can really feel those words. Especially when you need to deal with the real world, which is facing lot of people its never easy. 

And honestly, I've been there. Like a lot. Even still now. Somehow, i think its like repetition process of life. No matter what stage you are. Keep falling, learning, and improving.

Well is funny how everyone try to convince me that i am almost complete, life shows me that is definitely not. Why? Because I realise especially I need to learn more about love. 

Brain and heart suppose to be working together. When brain working more than heart, you achieved your goals but you lose your empathy. When you use heart more than brain, you become fool and can be manipulated by everyone. For a while I've been using my brain too much and forgot how to love. And I want to learn to love again. Learn to love God, family and others without forgetting my responsibility.


Yes, you could say almost all my wishes had been granted. Especially for girls on my age who I found mostly are very different from me. Still lot more to work on tho. Im young and still 20. 

But God never answer about love of my life since I was teenage. Maybe I have learn to love first, then He will answer for my prayer. If I'm having Mr. No one now even, maybe I will still feel lonely and couldn't keep him in my life.

God is so good to me. If I don't Him as my guidance, I will be turning into those people with cold hearted. Who achieved their goals and have everything but don't understand about love.


Well everyone has different story and opinion, but this is mine.

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