Goodbye

I dont know how many times ive cried since ive working in the new restaurant. I did plenty of crying and now still. I try to be happy as much as i can but reality speaks the reserve of it. The thing is i always look to the past, yes my second workplace. Feel like mostly chefs in my workplace now not treating me good, well they are bad i think. They are harsh, careless, and annoying. Oh gosh, i really2 miss my team before. Only work with them for 2 weeks but we already close to each other. One day without seeing them is like one day of misery. I do see them quite often in locker room because those restaurants are in the same company, but not everyday. Its been couple of days not seeing them. I miss their laughs, smiles, jokes, stories, short chats, hugs, and teamwork. I could tell you that is not smooth days in there, its a though one. Its a crazy busy restaurant, but ppl in there will help you out if you running low. And they are funny, even hilarious. There is no day without laugh and smiling in there for me. I did struggling and wishing my day would end, but only at service because they pushed me a lot. Afterwards is a happy days. They don't take every problems personally. And swearing? Its common there, even they are who's teaching me swearing a lot hahaha. They do swearing when mad, talking generally, and joking around. I know its bad but its funny. Also some chefs in there love to give me a hug, it feels so nice and i just feel acceptable by that, you know. Never been treated this way in any workplace before. I would love to go back and work with them, i know its not easy but I'm willing to learn if the head chef give me a chance, but sadly he didn't because its already full team now. Few days ago i went home earlier and passed thru their restaurant, i saw them chillin around after finished working and waiting for the pastry section to finish. My heart broken. I want to be part of it. I miss them but I cannot go there and only can watch from outside that reality changes. I am not part of them anymore and have to keep the distance. Its torturing me. Can you see how great their team work also? They waiting for pastry chefs to finish before home while talking with them. Thats the great team I'm dreaming of. On my current workplace i will never find something like that. Never. They are not fun at all. How i wish have a great team like that back into my life. Like two weeks that i had with them is the best work experience of my life. And probably i will never be part of their team anymore. Well, so long dickheads, i love you all so much crazy chefs. I have to accept the reality with brave heart and move on.