Just today my brother complains about his life, he said he always sacrifice himself for anyone but no one care about him at the end of day. Me as his sister made a lot mistakes to him, and i feel i have the biggest responsible for made him that way.
He said he has the worst life ever. What about me? I am not as old as him and I'm not having the same life as him. But really, my life goes up and down, met ppl who could treat me the worst, dropped my self esteem a lot when was looking for a job, and most of the time i cannot fight back to problems. Lot bad things happened. And I'm still fck ing 19 years old. I always trying to survive thou. I learn how to deal with people. Try to see good things in bad. Try to do goods even all i want to do is not give a damn at all. My life is bitter. All this year i try to be patient, patient, and more patient to everyone. Trying to tolerate something i couldn't. Trying to understand everyone. Maybe you all don't get what i mean, but at this point, is not only my brother that feeling desperate about life. Im sick also. Im in pain. And i never ask for someone to understand me, cause i know they couldn't.
I know I'm not as nice as him. I know his life is bitter too. Also i know i never could payback his kindness to me. But, life will not forever be like this. God is fair. He sees our pain and our heart.
If only your patient could cover the scars in your heart, why don't try to face the shit days with smile, bro? Forget the people who treat you wrong, they are worthless. Me as your sister not perfect also, i have big problem in my life most of the day, but i do really love you as my brother. Regardless of all my mistake, i apologise. Thanks for being a good one beside me. You could face the days, i believe you are stronger than me.
At the end of the day, you realise we all learning to live. And time is all we got. So never give up on life.
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