The Best Guy I Ever Known

From any kind of guy friends that i have, only him who understand me the most. He's one of my real best friends. When I'm down, he never leave me alone, he stays beside me and cheering me up. Even when I'm crying, he always try to calm me down, with many kinds of way. As i remember, he always made me smile everyday, even made me happy and always laughing. I just miss him. So much.
Now we don't talking anymore to each other. I hate that. I promise myself to stay away from him, becos he already have a girlfriend and I'm afraid to ruin his relationship. The fact is i have feeling for him and i also hate it. It makes a gap between us.

Now, i miss him so much. Why? I feel lonely. I never found a replacement of him. I think i could never find a guy bestfriend like him in this world, never. I feel the boundaries between us is just so strong, u know. Ive never been so honest to any kinds of guy, except him. Only he's the one who understand me and never insult me. I oftenly feel every guy that i ever met or even the closest one in my hs/college will never understand me. They never tried to know me as he does. Maybe they never accepted me for the way i am as their close friend. I feel they only beside me in happy times, but not in sad times. Maybe in other words, they use me just for fun. However, I also miss his kepo-an character hahaha. He always kepo cos he cares. And fyi, he's the nicest man I've ever known.

No any other guy can beat ur kindness, mate. Welldone, proud of u somehow hahaha. If theres award for the kindness guy in the world, definitely i would vote for u hahaha jokiiing theres no kind of award like that :p

Now, I'm in the sad moment of my life part 2. But my college friends seem didn't really care. It reminds me of him. The one who always ready beside me, in happy times and in sad times. The way his cheering me up in sad times its so unordinary, maybe its another reason i miss him now hahaha. And he never ill feel to me whenever he sees me crying hahaha, he keeps on beside me and cheering me up. It is make him different from another guy, really.

Guy like u r so hard to find, mate. So, its true what wise people said, only true friends who would willing to stay beside u when ure world fallin apart.

Well, thanku for being part of my life. I will never forget u. Maybe ur one of the best things that i never had, but I'm so thankful for every memories that we ever share together. U really give me an illustration of what kinda man that i should find for my future husband hahaha. Its not about perfection, but its about understanding between a person to another to make a perfect chemistry.