The Feeling of Loneliness

The last time I remember I was bad at making friends is when I'm 5th grade. Since then everything is fine. I started to can adapt with ppl around me. I can gain lot of friends in anywhere. I even become happy to be me. I pass my junior high school with bunch of friends. Till now, i still feel like jhs is the happiest moment of my life. I gain lots of friends there, laughed everyday, felt that I'm kinda funny which are can make a jokes and entertain ppl, can sat in dpr, etc. Everything was perfect there. If in high school? I had no problem at all. Till now I still hv a girlfriends who ready 24/7 to hear my story, we r still in contact, and sometimes we meet each other. Love them so muuuch. But everything changes. I'm not a jhs' student or hs' student anymore. I'm a college's student called uniprep. Everything was fine until I moved to class C4. First of all in C3 it was perfectly fine. I have lot of friends in there. Everybody in there can accept me. But since I move to C4, everything changes. I be friends with the boys. Sometimes I hv to accept a fact that they like to leave me alone. Its different with a girlfriends that can stick around with u everywhere. Morever, the originals girls from C4 they already closed to each other. So its kinda hard to socialize and be one of them. Actually, there's one girl from C3, but she's not kinda girl that fit with me and she has an old friend in C4 that make her easier to socialize with the other girls. I feel like a trash in C4. Really, I do. For the second time in my life, I feel I'm no good in socialize. Whyyy? Why this happen to me? What's wrong with uniprep and the world? What da fuck. My life is miserable in here. I just need a girlfriend like susan hioe (my close x-classmate) to be my classmate or anyone that can be my girlfriends so I don't feel lonely in C4 plsss. I've tried to socialize with the original girls from C4 but its epic fail hahaha and its kinda akward. Somehow we just don't fit. We have different lifestyle, different type of socialize, different interest and loads. The point is I don't hv a topic to talk to them, they don't even try to talk with me. They just answered my question. Hahaha.. What a pathetic me. I can't even make a jokes to them. Its gonna be so crispy. Ya, so my life is ridiculously pathetic now. I just sad with this situation. So sad. There's still 4 moths to go and I hv to be like this for 4 months. Pls wish me luck ppl and i hope everything changes into smthg good :''')