August ; My Wasted Month

Hi, yesterday I was taking a walk, looking for fresh air in the back of my apartment. As I realized, ya I did big mistake to my parents and my brother. This august I was literally having a wasted life. Living a chefs life, working for the whole week in the kitchen and went to pubs or you can call bar and drinking. Not much, really, but could make me typsy afterwards. I did enjoy it with my felix's colleagues and had a good time with them. Always every friday night I hang out with them in this month. I Feel like I'm having terrible life, so I use drinks and meet fun friends as getaway. But really those things can't make me out of the problem really. One fun night and afterwards the bad week keep repeating anyway. As I realized this is not a life that I'm living in. That's not make my parents and my brother happy. Deep in myself somehow I have guilty feeling especially when I'm so typsy and about to drunk. Well it only happened once hahaha. But really, that's not me. I need to get myself back in track. Maybe once in a month or once in two months thats okay, but not every friday night. Especially I don't have right to drunk anyway, Im a girl and have to responsible about myself. Who's looking after me if not myself, right?

So, Im trying to living a balance life now. Start this 1st september gonna start a new beginning.